Today has been a long, varied, roller-coaster of a day. I’m not sure what to say about it, and I’m not sure I can collect coherent thoughts to make a post about anything else. The public brouhaha is painful, I’m afraid, and all I can say is that I don’t know anything about the why. Simply that my name was vanished. My hurt inclines me to want to hide, but I know I shouldn’t, so… this post.
The kitchen is coming along, although there are setbacks. Not sure when it will all be functional again. I’m feeling out of sorts about that, having set my mind on being able to cook again tomorrow, and not having water, the electrics being… well, I don’t know precisely.
Still. The only thing that has happened in the last day and a little which is really sad is that someone I thought was a friend turned out to be… not. That was a little heartbreaking and very confusing and I don’t know at all how to deal with it. You know someone for years and suddenly you don’t any longer. I will recover, I suppose. At my age, heartbreaks aren’t as shattering as they were when you’re young and feel like the world pivots under you and drops you unexpectedly. You grow used to a certain amount of disappointment, and you certainly come to expect a lot of confusion and uncertainty as part of life’s processes and progresses.
I’ve been collecting, or making up, aphorisms for August. Meant to remind me to take a minute and think about them, a day’s reflection, they are lined up below. Perhaps you might find something of use in them. I’ve been sharing them on social media, here on Substack on Notes, and you can see them if you like and follow me.
Hopefully with enough pressure, you'll get answers.
Yeah, I know at this point the silence is an answer...but wow....
I hope tomorrow is a better day.
I like the drawings. Are they your originals?
Also agree about not wanting belly to stick out farther than boobs ;-)